“Teen Mom” star Amber Portwood mentioned that her daughter, Leah Shirley, observed that she was treating her son, 4-year-old James Glennon, otherwise.
Portwood, 32, mentioned down together with her buddy for a drink — a vodka with sugar-free Red Bull — after she was discharged from probation.
“Leah deserved this Amber,” the Indiana native advised her buddy on the October 4 episode of “Teen Mom: The Next Chapter.”
The “Teen Mom” star found one thing that stung when she talked to her ex-boyfriend, Gary Shirley, about their 13-year-old daughter.
“She had expressed, from what Gary had mentioned, , she had some emotions about how she noticed me treating James in comparison with why I could not deal with her that method,” the Indian native advised her buddy.
“I used to be like wow, I do not need her to really feel that method,” Portwood continued. “Even although I take duty for my actions again within the day, it is onerous to come back to phrases with you were not that individual to your first child, my woman.”
Portwood misplaced custody of Leah in 2011 after Child Protective Services was “nervous” concerning the “Teen Mom” star’s residing preparations, TMZ reported.
In 2012, Portwood went to jail for 17 months after she violated probation in her drug case, Us Weekly reported. In 2016, Portwood agreed Shirley might have major custody of Leah and she or he would pay him little one assist.
Portwood entered one other battle for custody — this time for James — after she was arrested in July 2019. She pleaded responsible to home battery and intimidation, per the Indy Star. This time, she averted jail time however was positioned on three-and-a-half years of probation.
In July 2022, a choose decided Portwood’s ex — Andrew Glennon — would have major custody of James.
Portwood Said Being on Probation For 3 Years Was ‘Rough’
Portwood was proud that she accomplished probation however it wasn’t a stroll within the park.
“I’m grateful that I fought so onerous to get by it trigger it has been so intense. When that you’ve got 5 years of jail hanging over your head,” she advised her buddy.
In a voiceover, Portwood admitted the interval was “actually tough, actually tiring.”
“I needed to do anger administration lessons and I noticed a psychiatrist as soon as per week,” she mentioned. “Going out I could not be round like a bunch of ingesting or something like that. I’m prepared for all of the stress of that to be off my shoulders and transfer on.”
During a household gathering with the Shirleys, Portwood mentioned she wasn’t going to “do something” till 24 hours after her probation interval ended.
“Or simply wait till the twenty fifth,” Leah suggested her mom. “Or identical to do not do it.”
“I’ve a rocky previous and made many errors,” Portwood maintained. “I’m in a significantly better place now.”
Before Portwood walked out of the door, Leah ominously advised her mom to “make good selections.”
Portwood Felt Like She Was Living a Double Life
As proven in “The Next Chapter” episode, Portwood received in her automotive and gave Catelynn Baltierra a name.
“I really feel like I’m residing two lives,” she confessed to her co-star. “Like an awesome, blended household on one facet, after which I really feel like I’m simply fully cut up on the opposite and I simply need every little thing to be cohesive.”
Despite feeling fractured, Portwood admitted that her relationship with Leah had improved.
“It seems like I’m truly her mother once more,” she advised Baltierra. “She provides me love once more. I wish to preserve it that method.”
Even although her probation interval was ending — and she or he’d be allowed to drink alcohol once more — Portwood mentioned she wasn’t fascinated with getting intoxicated.
“I’ve a rule that I can’t get twisted drunk or something like that. I can also’t do pictures,” Portwood advised Baltierra. “Even although I’ve by no means had an issue with ingesting. I really feel like I owe it to myself to ensure I at the very least have some kind of boundary.”
“I’m pleased with myself however I’m additionally very unhappy and heartbroken that I went by all of this,” she mentioned. I do not assume anyone will ever perceive how f****** onerous this has been.”
“I could not let Leah down once more,” she added.
To discover out what occurs subsequent, do not miss “Teen Mom: The Next Chapter” when it airs Tuesdays at 8 p.m. ET on MTV.