Dancing With the Stars contestant AJ McLean lately opened up about the first time he used cocaine. The incident happened almost twenty years in the past, however the Backstreet Boys singer told People that he remembers the occasion vividly.
McLean advised the outlet that the first time he used the drug was earlier than an evening shoot for a music video and he was pressured into it by somebody he thought was his buddy at the time. Before that, McLean stated that he had by no means tried medication.
That evening marked the begin of his dependancy, which he struggled with for a very long time. The star advised People that he saved the dependancy secret for months earlier than he was in a position to open up about it and search remedy.
McLean has been fully sober since December 2019 and now attends common 12-step conferences.
McLean Says the First Time He Used Cocaine Was Before a Music Video Shoot
The first time McLean tried cocaine, he was gearing up for a music video shoot, and a buddy provided him cocaine.
“I used to be launched to cocaine actually the evening that we shot the video for ‘The Call,'” he told People. “It was the first time I ever tried it as a result of it was a late-night shoot. I used to be with a buddy at the time – who’s clearly not a buddy anymore – and provided it to me. I stated ‘No,’ then I caved and did it.”
He added that when he obtained to the set later, he advised all people that he had tried cocaine that day, and everybody that he had advised warned him to cease speaking about it.
“Somehow, someway, I saved it a secret from everybody for the subsequent a minimum of 18 months earlier than the boys caught on, earlier than my household caught on, earlier than my actual pals caught on,” he stated. “I discovered a strategy to actually maintain it beneath the rug.”
McLean Says he Used Drugs to Make his Insecurity ‘Go Away’
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During the interview with People, McLean stated that he used medication as a result of he thought it will assist him really feel safer.
“I assumed medication and alcohol would make these emotions of insecurity go away,” he stated. “But it does not work that means.”
Then, 18 months after the first time he tried the drug, the different members of The Backstreet Boys confronted McLean to inform him he wanted to get assist.
“The most important a part of that dialog was the closing factor Kevin [Richardson] stated to me: If I continued utilizing, he stated, ‘I’ll by no means belief you once more. You’re useless to me.'”
McLean was on and off the wagon time and again till December 9, 2019, he says. That evening, he’d been planning to go see Shania Twain in Vegas and he had a plan for the complete evening together with the place and when he can be getting his medication and the place and when he can be getting drunk.
The subsequent day, he missed each of his flights again residence, and by the time he obtained there, he says he nonetheless smelled like alcohol, which means his spouse wouldn’t let him play with their youngsters. That’s what made him lastly take up full-time sobriety.
He’s now utilizing the pandemic to get himself again on the proper monitor and attend each day 12-step conferences whereas checking in together with his sponsor generally round six occasions a day.