The previous yr has been a tough one for former “The Challenge” star Ashley Cain as his younger daughter Azaylia died in April 2021, simply shy of her 8-month birthday, after a troublesome battle with leukemia. This week, Ashley opened up about how he is been on the receiving finish of some horrible on-line trolls and harassment and the way he is battled suicidal ideas consequently.
On January 23, Ashley shared a collection of images of himself on an evening out with a few buddies and after a couple of slides of images, he shared a prolonged message explaining that no one is aware of the reality behind images. He mentioned he is obtained a whole lot of hateful feedback each time he posts a photograph of himself smiling or sporting luxurious clothes or equipment.
The actuality star identified that the great automobile he is driving in images could possibly be a pal’s automobile as a result of he is the designated driver, the coat and denims could possibly be borrowed from a cousin, and the flamboyant watch on his wrist may have been given by a pal “to make me really feel particular as I have not labored for over a yr whereas I took care of my daughter earlier than establishing her basis.”
He wrote, “Maybe I’m even borrowing my smile as a result of my eyes say a distinct story and I do know that quickly I should commerce my happiness again once more for the ache that aches my coronary heart.” He mentioned, “Maybe I simply wished to attempt to get pleasure from myself for one night and substitute the suicidal ideas I’ve on a regular basis since my daughter handed away in my arms.” He mentioned, “Unless you’re me, you’ll by no means actually know” the reality behind the images.
I attempt to be a pillar of power for myself, for Safiyya, for my household and my buddies. Even for my very own followers watching me going by their very own issues. But I really feel that the stronger I’m, the extra folks decide, the extra folks assault and the extra they attempt to convey me down.
Ashley Said He’s Been on the Receiving End of Personal Attacks & Harassment on a Daily Basis
In his message, Ashley mentioned, “You could not consider what trolling, harassment and bribery folks attempt to use on me every day. What horrendous lengths folks go to with regard to non-public assaults on my daughter, myself and everybody near me.” He added, “Sometimes I really feel like the one manner these individuals who do not even know me will cease, is that if I kill myself.”
The “War of the Worlds” star mentioned he is damage that individuals would attempt to discredit him as he is making an attempt to be higher and “maintain his daughter’s identify alive” by making a distinction for different households and younger ones affected by childhood most cancers. “Maybe in the future folks will perceive, perhaps they will not,” he wrote. “Maybe by the point they do, will probably be too late.” He concluded his submit:
Maybe they may learn this and suppose extra properly find out how to spend [their] time. Maybe they may perceive now why I’ve to go to the intense lengths I do, why it’s so necessary to me and for these round me why I’ve to.
There is a whole lot of maybes right here however there’s one factor for sure… Though I stroll by the valley of the shadow of demise, I’ll concern no evil!
Ashley’s Daughter Died in April 2021 Just Before Her 8-Month Birthday After Battling a Rare & Aggressive Form of Leukemia
Ashley daughter Azaylia was born on August 10, 2020, however sadly was recognized with a uncommon type of leukemia simply two months later. Ashley and his accomplice Safiyya Vorajee have been very open on social media about all of the therapy choices they pursued to take care of the aggressive illness however obtained the devastating information in April 2020 that she had tumors all through her physique and there have been no extra therapy choices.
On April 25, 2021, simply earlier than her 8-month birthday, Ashley posted that Azaylia had died. Since then, he mentioned that he would focus his efforts on serving to different households and kids affected by childhood cancers by elevating cash and consciousness. He created a basis in his daughter’s identify with the purpose to “assist households which are fundraising for therapies that might not be available on the NHS and supply youngsters with memorable experiences as they combat most cancers.”
If you or somebody you already know is having suicidal ideas, the toll-free National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) is on the market 24 hours a day, seven days every week.